Pumpkin Soup Throw Down to celebrate my depression free/seizure free season2:12:00 AM
|It will be an amazing throw down with my world famous pumpkin soup...dont believe anything my brothers say about the soup|
This journey doesn't begin with a pumpkin, or maybe it does...maybe i was depression/seizure's pumpkin (read - lover; why do we call people we love pumpkin?) anyway now i am not and that is a reason to celebrate hence the pumpkin...but why pumpkin, well i became a vegetarian (see point 3 below)
Why am i celebrating, memory loss like i cannot remember the last time i had a seizure or even how it feels to have one and that is really amazing. I am so grateful for how far God has brought me. Before i used to count days i have not had one because i used to have one almost every day and my life oscillated from having a seizure and recovering from one or being high on seizure meds...i was seizure zone and so i must admit it feels so good to be in this space. So what did i do differently this time;
1. Identified the triggers early
This journey began with me trying to be depression free in December after something happened in September that i thought i could hold up but failed miserably. I was so so worried that i would fall into severe depression because that was a huge trigger and with the severe depression to near suicide the year before after my Addis Ababa, Ethiopia trip, i knew i had to do something hence my campaign which was geared towards being depression free but totally helped in the epilepsy side of life too.
|Flyer for Feb event by the discipleship ministry i lead (see more picture here)|
2. Assemble your tools
I cannot stress enough in my posts the importance of having positive coping mechanisms (Learn more about coping mechanism in on toolbox vlog and email me on firstname.lastname@example.org if you'd like me to guide you in making one).
Having a mental health condition/epilepsy is a full time job. You need to be constantly on the look out for trigger and for internal signals. I am constantly being mindful of my energy and changes in my body, is my heart beating faster, how is my speech - am i talking too fast or incoherently, am i having headaches, how is my sleep.
I have shared some tools i started using before i went on hiatus
- Happy List (some people call it the Gratitude List)
- Created my own patio (a chill out space outside my house)
- Morning pages (a daily writing practice)
and that time away was also a tool that worked wonderfully for me...being off social media and separating from people gave me amazing revelations, clarity and saw the prioritizing of a lot of things in my life; the best outcome being reconnecting with God and jump starting a discipleship ministry
|Purpose Driven Life x Rick Warren|
3. Celebrate strides
This is where the pumpkin comes into play. i started swelling real bad whenever i ate animal products and so i opted to be a vegetarian...tried cheating a few times with eggs and cheese but my body showed me who is boss so i am loyal to this process, soooo loyal that now my friends gift me with vegetables and pumpkins are the in thing now i guess...look at my life. But i love it, i love how far i have come, i love how far i am going.