Saturday, September 13, 2014

Friday, September 12, 2014

Sitawa goes to Storymoja Festival

Good afternoon beautiful people,

It's Friday and the Sun is so amazing....that i know because I am blogging under its awesomeness.  So the beautiful people at Storymoja decided to have a session dubbed healing through writing and invited your truly, me to be part of it.

I am uber excited and can't wait to see y'all on Sunday 21st and all through the festival.

In other news,  what are your plans for tonight? If you live on my side of the world,  there is some jazz happening...hope to see you there.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

My 3 day medicine journal - Is 'Western' medicine too overrated and if it is, what are the alternatives?

Good evening beautiful people,  i am ALIVE!!!

If you have been keeping up you know my leg drunk tea and it has it degree of pain all figured out, I am getting recurring seizures and one of them caused the burn to add to that i am experiencing bipolar mania with hypersexuality tendencies coupled with craving for alcohol. To keep myself in check I am faithfully taking my meds; 2 for the seizures,  3 for my leg then for the bipolar 5...All in one sitting.  Then now my periods checked in and the thought of popping 12 pills (additional 2 are pain killers for my cramps) every night is no appealing especially since there are more pills to pop when i wake up.

My routine from Tuesday has been;
- Tuesday 11p  meds slept till 11 am 
- Wednesday 11am woke up high from meds and weak, ate something pop morning pills sleep till 10p
- Wednesday 10p still high, ate something not sure whether to take lunchtime med or evening meds or all together (go with option 2 and sleep till Thursday 10am)
- Thursday 10 am eat something only take leg meds and cramp meds sleep for 5 hours but too weak to go for daily gym work out so decide to blog

Question is what if I was employed?  
Wouldn't I have been fired because these meds don't make you sleep,  you black out
What if I was a mother or a wife? 
I'd never see my kids and my hubby would only interact with zombie me.

I have always been an advocate for meds and the role they play in psychiatry but I have also stressed they be used in conjunction with exercise,  watching diet, therapies but I also think those prescribing should do it moderation or with a formula that makes me and those of us on the meds active. This is one of the reasons I wanted my meds tapered down but all I got was a doctor who said they'd beat me to a coma,  getting thrown out of two hospitals and wrongful admission to one hospital.

Which brings me to the question is Western medicine overrated? 

Why do they stress on no alcohol,  these meds are lethal on their own. 
Can we as people living with epilepsy and mental health conditions be on medication and still be functional or we have to skip a few doses to live a 'normal life'?

Again tonight I will only take meds for my leg because i have an early morning meeting, if go drink alcohol or sext someone because of my mania, all I can say is at least I lived on Friday 12th September 2014. 

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

I burnt my left leg during a seizure (pix of burn)

Last week I shared that i burnt my left leg during a seizure,  here is a little progress report.

Despite a little pain when i sit for long then stand, i can walk well, the water is still collecting so i still have occasional blisters but not as big as the very first one.

My scar has moved from white to reddish, and i praying hard that the skin covers it all soon.

On the bipolar side of things,  i am manic and doing the cliché things anyone who is manic does.

Friday, September 5, 2014

10 things having #epilepsy makes a downer

I am stuck in bed because of pain my leg which I burnt when i got a seizure when making tea a night ago. My leg literally drank all the tea and I didn't feel anything whole of yesterday until evening after my work out I see this big wobbly blister when removing my socks. I just drained it and the water that came out was enough to fill a tea cup.